Dogalapan

कुछ जो आइने के दोगलेपन से वाकिफ ना थे,
कुछ जो हमशक्ले इबादत में मशरूफ थे
कुछ जिस्म जो तख्त पे ताराशे  जाने अभी बाकी थे ,
उनके गलियारे की सिसकियाँ भूख के टसुए में फीकी पढ़नी अभी बाकी थी,
उनके खोखले से सासो के खोखलेपन में एक अपनपन सा लगता है ,जो बचपन जिया भी नहीं वो मानो मारता सा लगता है,
इनकी ख़ामोशीयो को एक तलब  का सुकून  देसकू,तो इनकी सांसे छीन कर भी देना अब मानो एक मुक्कदर सा लगता है।

Chaotic beauty named Triumph

They fought like hawks on their own dead corpse,
A torn page from history, when it was all about mist and mystery,
it was the time when life is gambled and youth was whored.

Where power is a slavery
and every Brutus a beneficiary
when difference had definitions,
it's where legends perished,
when only the conspirers are those who prospered.

That was the time when a beauty was imposed
which has never ever been posed,
It was a never satisfying mirage of thirst named immortality
Consumed Achilles, Alexander, Ashok and their mortality
It was the time when swords carved history and ink changed its colour.

Everyone failed to fill the colour in those carving of the swords
Even the painter felt like a spectator in front of his own art.

They got what they wanted, a undisputed immortality somewhere in the chapters of last known page within a lost history.
It was a time when courage had faces ambitions had boundaries
Those were the time of chaotic beauty called the triumph

The Forgotten Promise.

Three days back his father taught him to shave,
soon he will be the one returning the favour promise he said.

Some said it was just another propaganda, so did the rumours grew
but the next day those were the real bullets that flew.

Some cried, few wept, and then surrendered themselves to fate
others were asked to have some faith.

It was over for them, that was the outcome of the first wave.
for rest the ocean still awaits.

he hadn't moved for the last 12 hours, still, his heart beated
like the horse in that final race,
even when breathing he still suffocated

A nameless face asked him if he has someone, who still waits
a long pause ...

it was amazing, for a second that he could've thought of anything, could've done anything, could've have been anyone, would've been anywhere, wished for anything.
but now

he wanted to give everything just to have a few seconds nap on his father lap while his mother applied some
oil on his feet, she always said it's good for a sound sleep.

Breaking the silence the nameless man continued,
that his wife died but the war didn't even let him grief,,
over everything he still wants to fight reason best known to him.

Meanwhile

He waited for the second wave, not sure, if he is ready to face his final fate
one pull and two rounds that's all the war he knew
334 days of training just for five minutes of chaos.

It felt like that nameless face can actually see through his dying heart,

he asked him to say sorry to his father in return he promised that he will say hello to his better half.
In those final moments, he had everything but wanted nothing,

it wasn't an awakening nether it was enlighting,
it was hope
that whispered him, what's next if he sees through it
and he is still hoping
Hoping he gently made it to sound sleep

adhura kirddar

 .अधूरा किरदार 

यु मानो इन्तिज़ार के आसार बस  ख़तम होने  को थे,
उम्र वाही कही थमी रही .

वो तो पन्नो को यु ही पलटती रही ,
हम हि किसी किरदार सा पीछे छुटते चले गए .

उन्होंने तो सब भुला नया साहिल चुन लिया 
हम किनारे खड़े आज भि बारिश में भीग रहे .

 मस्रुफिअतो का दौर है ख्वाइशो पर अब धुल जमने लगी है 
पर कहिनी यही खत्म नही होती  ……

सिलसिला बदला में वाही था !

कई फिर्दोश आई ,कुछ ने पन्ने पलटे ,कुछ ने नजरंदाज़ किया
कुछ बर्दाश न कर सकी कुछ उलझ गई ,इन गीली लकड़ी से किरदार में .

 ना जला पाई मुझेऔर ना भुझा पाई ….

शायद ये सब एक इत्तिफाक़ ही था !
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पर उम्मीद का होसला तो देखो !  ,इन्तीजर उसका है जिनको एहेसास तक नही  ,

में एक वक्त था किताबो में सिमट गया ,तुम एक लमहा थी खयालो में कही ओझल हो

just an another dream .

I wished you could stay by me
Warmed me down with the warmth of your heat
If I could lie on you listening to your heart beat
Was all that can only be my dream !
Each drop reminds me of the fragrance that was not fading
It was all you and a never ending thirst
It was all dusk not the dream
I waited to be woken up by someone
But the coldness in her heart wanted me to stay
It was all dark but a wet lane
Mire with the mystic but the fragrance was not the same
And a promising sweetheart was adding to the nature once again
There was nothing more I would want to miss
In a sparkling rain with a warm kiss
 And it all faded again but this time it was more than a dream .

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Things every men must do !

Some things have changed over past years and when we are talking about change I might actually vouch for something which haven’t changed take gym for instance when we talk about gym last I checked they are place for training not to  feel  good or look good and now  there are few gyms with air condition on them .hell I don’t know how can someone workout /train with air condition on . well personally I don’t have anything against gym  of today or those hard-working owner's trying to make a career because that’s all they know.  look I get it ,These gyms are beautiful and, in most cases very well organized  . I've seen huge cardio rooms, spinning rooms, low/ high impact floors, saunas, and marble bathrooms. I've even to one where bathroom attendants hand out towels I mean seriously, but It's nice, then again  give me a friggin' break here. Gyms are for training, not for feeling or looking good.Well I was never a gym kind of person and I know most of them aren’t the question arise why ? I never preferred gym may be because of my slim personality got me into so called complex hell I even made jokes about working out and considered it to be a waste of time , and felt embarrassed myself  later. and maybe it is but sometime things go south and then like the proverb say “ run for your life “ it is then it struck me that in olden days there were not gym to get trained and there were no bodybuilding that time like today ,so I decided to do things little bit with what I have and without using any equipments so here I would like to share few way to get natural strength and stamina and to be ready when time come .First one will be definitely running ,In order to train right you must know what kind of body you have and which exercise will be best for you some will deny the fact but it true not everyone can train and have body they can have but what you can have is the best out of you and for that running is important not only for legs but for whole body it help is getting rid of extra fat you have on you ,running is something which is used to train even in olden times for the perfect example will be that of Spartans they use to train their soldiers for battle you have to be quick and most fast according to the situation and one more thing running is not done on hard, resistant ground,” but in deep sand where it is not easy to plant a foot solidly or get a grip with it since it slips away from underneath the foot. And one must run bare foot that gives proper pressure for lower and upper body and quit running over treadmill for god sake run in open so that you can sweat freely .
Skipping ,though it is not that old but it first stared around 1930 when boxing gym gain popularity even 10 min of skipping  will gain  you  enough for your body, period and the more you jump and it goes on increasing see this is one thing of exercises based on stamina you never  stop getting good at it is never an option the more you will do the more you can do always pushing
Pull up and chin-ups –in order to get trained with weights the best is to train with your own may be the first day will be difficult but you just keep on going and more you will do the better you will get pulling your start with 5 and them just keep on adding two each day you would notice when you will be top dog ait and despite everything there is nothing more to weight lifting then lifting your own even if you are going for war keep that in mind
Squats .to have a powerful upper body on one must never forget to have powerful legs or cans say lower body start with 10 and and add 5 more daily nothing more then that it’s that simple
Pushups .the best thing about push up is that you can do it any where you want and not there are different types of that wide ,close ,diamond .like every other body weight exercise this can be more fun and affective if divided between times like do 10 reps and after two hours do 15 more and them after few hours do 20 and like this just start adding 2 reps each day and if you are working you might not be able to do more frequently it’s airtight you can do it when you come back it’s just 10 reps and you are already tired 10 rips will hardly  fill anything and like this without paying any special attention you can have the powerful arms and chest you want .
Swimming ,this is one exercise which you can not just avoid it in my personal experience swimming helps in gaining strength  as well as stamina both and in process you gain control over your berthing and like they say the less you breath the more you live .Well I might  have added few more but the idea was  just to get stared and with every day and just bits of each workout daily without paying extra effort you might not get what you wanted but instead you will be able to train your body you might need at last remember and remember this whenever you fill like quitting and not doing it today just think where have you been today if you’d have continued  throughout the year at last I would conclude with a short story
Milo and the CalfJust how badass was Milo of Croton? During his childhood (or so goes one legend), the future Olympian wrestler owned a young calf he used to lift onto his shoulders and carry around for a spell. Milo is said to have done this every single day: as it got bigger, he grew stronger. Four years later, Milo could be seen wandering around with this fully grown pet bull resting on his mainly shoulders .  

Men of 21st century

Being a man in the past  was simple thing ,you left school got job ,got married had children drunk heavily had an extra affair ,play golf smoke your pipe never speak about your feeling under any circumstances and die of heart attack at the age of 56 ,it make look absurd to you know but that is how men were portrayed in past  .

Things have changed now ,in  this century a man is what he looks like. being giants or having beard like barbarians are considered to be the sign of manhood. following culture blindly till they go bald, and after then it’s too late to generate the instinct of a man a aroma so rare that was once pursued by men ,now a day’s boys don’t become man instead they learn it through , and this is so that  woman think them as man ,and woman like mediocre man and that is what boys are becoming today having a girl as a center of their life ,things are different now ‘I  am a feminist ‘ but I am also a man ,they behave like following feminism but also want to feel like man .

I’m not sure when I first came through this term “mansplaining” – where  actually a man explain something condescendingly to a woman – but I do know in my gut as soon as I became aware of it I felt terrified that I’d inadvertently done it at some point. 

Masculinity in many culture is  tied to the fears and hopes of today’s  society. As our today’s men hope  become more amorphous, so too does the “purpose” of masculinity. Young men have given up on the dream of the job-for-life, house, kids, Alsatian and quadruple gold-plated pension, they get depress at the age of 25 because of not getting success in life ,what they don’t understand is that being a man is not just about pushups and charm it is about taking responsibilities ,and not about being ignorant and careless which sets example of a puny man .

   But what I think  is that a fundamental change in masculine values is just the flip side of equality. Just like men should  fight for, support and celebrate female progress .we must help one another as we enter the next stage of our cultural elite. If we do, maybe our personal masculine crises will give way to personal masculine identities all of our own. What have we got to lose by trying this? Nothing but our ever-increasing sense of worthlessness.

Remember that it is by falling free and confronting our inner core which is the fuel to our man soul we can achieve the true aroma which we have as blessing for our true manhood ,