adhura kirddar

 .अधूरा किरदार 

यु मानो इन्तिज़ार के आसार बस  ख़तम होने  को थे,
उम्र वाही कही थमी रही .

वो तो पन्नो को यु ही पलटती रही ,
हम हि किसी किरदार सा पीछे छुटते चले गए .

उन्होंने तो सब भुला नया साहिल चुन लिया 
हम किनारे खड़े आज भि बारिश में भीग रहे .

 मस्रुफिअतो का दौर है ख्वाइशो पर अब धुल जमने लगी है 
पर कहिनी यही खत्म नही होती  ……

सिलसिला बदला में वाही था !

कई फिर्दोश आई ,कुछ ने पन्ने पलटे ,कुछ ने नजरंदाज़ किया
कुछ बर्दाश न कर सकी कुछ उलझ गई ,इन गीली लकड़ी से किरदार में .

 ना जला पाई मुझेऔर ना भुझा पाई ….

शायद ये सब एक इत्तिफाक़ ही था !
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पर उम्मीद का होसला तो देखो !  ,इन्तीजर उसका है जिनको एहेसास तक नही  ,

में एक वक्त था किताबो में सिमट गया ,तुम एक लमहा थी खयालो में कही ओझल हो

just an another dream .

I wished you could stay by me
Warmed me down with the warmth of your heat
If I could lie on you listening to your heart beat
Was all that can only be my dream !
Each drop reminds me of the fragrance that was not fading
It was all you and a never ending thirst
It was all dusk not the dream
I waited to be woken up by someone
But the coldness in her heart wanted me to stay
It was all dark but a wet lane
Mire with the mystic but the fragrance was not the same
And a promising sweetheart was adding to the nature once again
There was nothing more I would want to miss
In a sparkling rain with a warm kiss
 And it all faded again but this time it was more than a dream .

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Things every men must do !

Some things have changed over past years and when we are talking about change I might actually vouch for something which haven’t changed take gym for instance when we talk about gym last I checked they are place for training not to  feel  good or look good and now  there are few gyms with air condition on them .hell I don’t know how can someone workout /train with air condition on . well personally I don’t have anything against gym  of today or those hard-working owner's trying to make a career because that’s all they know.  look I get it ,These gyms are beautiful and, in most cases very well organized  . I've seen huge cardio rooms, spinning rooms, low/ high impact floors, saunas, and marble bathrooms. I've even to one where bathroom attendants hand out towels I mean seriously, but It's nice, then again  give me a friggin' break here. Gyms are for training, not for feeling or looking good.Well I was never a gym kind of person and I know most of them aren’t the question arise why ? I never preferred gym may be because of my slim personality got me into so called complex hell I even made jokes about working out and considered it to be a waste of time , and felt embarrassed myself  later. and maybe it is but sometime things go south and then like the proverb say “ run for your life “ it is then it struck me that in olden days there were not gym to get trained and there were no bodybuilding that time like today ,so I decided to do things little bit with what I have and without using any equipments so here I would like to share few way to get natural strength and stamina and to be ready when time come .First one will be definitely running ,In order to train right you must know what kind of body you have and which exercise will be best for you some will deny the fact but it true not everyone can train and have body they can have but what you can have is the best out of you and for that running is important not only for legs but for whole body it help is getting rid of extra fat you have on you ,running is something which is used to train even in olden times for the perfect example will be that of Spartans they use to train their soldiers for battle you have to be quick and most fast according to the situation and one more thing running is not done on hard, resistant ground,” but in deep sand where it is not easy to plant a foot solidly or get a grip with it since it slips away from underneath the foot. And one must run bare foot that gives proper pressure for lower and upper body and quit running over treadmill for god sake run in open so that you can sweat freely .
Skipping ,though it is not that old but it first stared around 1930 when boxing gym gain popularity even 10 min of skipping  will gain  you  enough for your body, period and the more you jump and it goes on increasing see this is one thing of exercises based on stamina you never  stop getting good at it is never an option the more you will do the more you can do always pushing
Pull up and chin-ups –in order to get trained with weights the best is to train with your own may be the first day will be difficult but you just keep on going and more you will do the better you will get pulling your start with 5 and them just keep on adding two each day you would notice when you will be top dog ait and despite everything there is nothing more to weight lifting then lifting your own even if you are going for war keep that in mind
Squats .to have a powerful upper body on one must never forget to have powerful legs or cans say lower body start with 10 and and add 5 more daily nothing more then that it’s that simple
Pushups .the best thing about push up is that you can do it any where you want and not there are different types of that wide ,close ,diamond .like every other body weight exercise this can be more fun and affective if divided between times like do 10 reps and after two hours do 15 more and them after few hours do 20 and like this just start adding 2 reps each day and if you are working you might not be able to do more frequently it’s airtight you can do it when you come back it’s just 10 reps and you are already tired 10 rips will hardly  fill anything and like this without paying any special attention you can have the powerful arms and chest you want .
Swimming ,this is one exercise which you can not just avoid it in my personal experience swimming helps in gaining strength  as well as stamina both and in process you gain control over your berthing and like they say the less you breath the more you live .Well I might  have added few more but the idea was  just to get stared and with every day and just bits of each workout daily without paying extra effort you might not get what you wanted but instead you will be able to train your body you might need at last remember and remember this whenever you fill like quitting and not doing it today just think where have you been today if you’d have continued  throughout the year at last I would conclude with a short story
Milo and the CalfJust how badass was Milo of Croton? During his childhood (or so goes one legend), the future Olympian wrestler owned a young calf he used to lift onto his shoulders and carry around for a spell. Milo is said to have done this every single day: as it got bigger, he grew stronger. Four years later, Milo could be seen wandering around with this fully grown pet bull resting on his mainly shoulders .  

Men of 21st century

Being a man in the past  was simple thing ,you left school got job ,got married had children drunk heavily had an extra affair ,play golf smoke your pipe never speak about your feeling under any circumstances and die of heart attack at the age of 56 ,it make look absurd to you know but that is how men were portrayed in past  .

Things have changed now ,in  this century a man is what he looks like. being giants or having beard like barbarians are considered to be the sign of manhood. following culture blindly till they go bald, and after then it’s too late to generate the instinct of a man a aroma so rare that was once pursued by men ,now a day’s boys don’t become man instead they learn it through , and this is so that  woman think them as man ,and woman like mediocre man and that is what boys are becoming today having a girl as a center of their life ,things are different now ‘I  am a feminist ‘ but I am also a man ,they behave like following feminism but also want to feel like man .

I’m not sure when I first came through this term “mansplaining” – where  actually a man explain something condescendingly to a woman – but I do know in my gut as soon as I became aware of it I felt terrified that I’d inadvertently done it at some point. 

Masculinity in many culture is  tied to the fears and hopes of today’s  society. As our today’s men hope  become more amorphous, so too does the “purpose” of masculinity. Young men have given up on the dream of the job-for-life, house, kids, Alsatian and quadruple gold-plated pension, they get depress at the age of 25 because of not getting success in life ,what they don’t understand is that being a man is not just about pushups and charm it is about taking responsibilities ,and not about being ignorant and careless which sets example of a puny man .

   But what I think  is that a fundamental change in masculine values is just the flip side of equality. Just like men should  fight for, support and celebrate female progress .we must help one another as we enter the next stage of our cultural elite. If we do, maybe our personal masculine crises will give way to personal masculine identities all of our own. What have we got to lose by trying this? Nothing but our ever-increasing sense of worthlessness.

Remember that it is by falling free and confronting our inner core which is the fuel to our man soul we can achieve the true aroma which we have as blessing for our true manhood ,

It was  the dusk which was getting all over the moment as the sunlight faded her eyes started sparkling, like droplets of wine reflecting everything what so ever touched it .everything was more alive than it was ever before, sudden her warmth cleared the mistiness in the air, and everything was as clear mirror. Her motive was as clear as water and like it so deep which no human can penetrate at least not without drowning in it, but suddenly a sort of discomfort aroused in the air. There was a question rising why? but before anything could be uttered they kissed that was about to seal the moment and with the sensation ,the answer came about being lost and then either of them didn't wanted to be each other’s end ,that is the beauty of the relation named  friendship ,they discover that they grow differently without growing apart  . 

53 Years Ago, 120 Men Saved Ladakh From China. This Is The Story Of The Greatest Last Stand Ever At RezangLa!

A hundred years can not repair a moment loss of pain ,their was once a saying  that it's by protecting other's you can save your self  and if you will think only of ourself you'll be destroyed that's the nature of the war . here i am  not trying to portray anything but it was Mr Nehru saying that why are we bothering for the barren which is no good to us yes this was said during his sessions in parliament during war in which Ram manohar lohia said if their is no hair on my head should i cut it down. that was an absurd relation but we all know what was he trying to say 

Old men said it's not the title that honor's man but man that honor's title. the reason is since the beginning of modern day warfare, their have been battles, their where war that   have  even wiped the whole generation .but even todays we take war as a act of bravery and soldiers as more then  a  ordinary man, it is because they willingly go where no one els would dare to that's what makes them different ,their have been stories specially  war stories which i personally feel that had made a impression on my mind ,as the time passed they started forgetting them that's the nature of man. when it comes to peace people forget war, which is really shame and when their comes few moments when we pray and remember, the fallen some great intellectuals says we didn't ask they to give their life ,you know he is kind of true, no sir you did not but the truth is they really don't care what you think so gents here today i am going to write something from the face of past which is considered as one  of the greatest last stand in the history of armed forces across the world , yes we are talking about rezang la !some of you may have herd of battle of rezang la or perhaps you may have not .that's the idea behind this so that you may know that someone slept that morning so that you may again wake tomorrow,some one stood their so that you may never have to run yes we are talking back  53 years ago 120 men saved ladakh  from china facing the odd gaist 5000to 6000 soldiers .

India hasn't lost a lot of wars – which is why 1962 India-China war is essential because it hardened the resolve for India to create an army like no other.Despite the fact that India lost the war, it made us realize how important it was to modernize our army and weaponry. The only thing that stood out though was the bravado of the Indian soldier - who fought to his last breath without weapons or back up often with his bare hands like in the case of Rezang La.

The Greatest Last Stand Ever Taken

On November 18, 1962 on snow clad mountains of Chushul in Ladakh, took place the battle that is still considered to be one of the greatest last stands in the history of armed forces across the world.

The Charlie company of 120 jawans of 13 Kumaon led by Major Shaitan Singh was protecting Chushul airfield which was vital if India had to hold on to Ladakh.

The People’s Liberation Army (PLA) of 5,000-6,000 soldiers equipped with heavy artillery support attacked Chushul early morning. And to make matters worse, a crest behind the ridge prevented Indian artillery from lending support, leaving the Jawans to fight for themselves.

A lesser army might have retreated, but the company led by commander Major Shaitan Singh fought till last man, last round and last breath. Legend says that the brave 120 killed close to 1,300 enemy soldiers. Only 6 of the 120 member company survived the war, 114 did not.

The remaining six were taken as Prisoners of War (POW) by Chinese; but all miraculously escaped. Out of these six heroes, only four are alive now

The battle of Rezang La was the only bright spot for India in the 1962 war with China.  captain (ret)Ramchander Yadav and hawaldar (ret)Nihal Singh, two of the six soldiers who survived that battle, look back at the events of that icy November morning 53 years ago.  And here are few question that have been asked to both the soldiers ,wo survived the war. they say that they are alive just to tell the legend and their responsibility that is should not be forgotten .

Following question is been asked by the indian express -

Please describe the scene of that day. The attack started at 3:30 a.m.?

Yadav: I was a sepoy in Charlie Company of 13 Kumaon Regiment and was with the Major at Rezang La post. At 3:30 am, firing took place at the section of Naik Gulab Singh, who later got the Vir Chakra.

This one Company had one Param Vir Chakra, five Vir Chakras, and four Sena medals, including you. Medals were rarely awarded those days, still so many were given. What happened after that?

Yadav: We got alerts. When my officer asked, I said Platoon No 8 had informed that the enemy had attacked. The enemy was trying to climb but the LMG of Hukam Chand (Vir Chakra) killed four. After 10 minutes, Platoon 7 informed me about the attack on them. I asked Surja Ram (Vir Chakra) how things were. He said they had taken their positions and that 400 people were trying to climb from 14,000 ft to 18,000 ft.

All the names of your comrades are written on the memorial here in Rewari. The list here says that 114 jawans killed 1,300 Chinese enemies that day.

Yadav: I saw that with my own eyes. Bodies were lying all around.

So when you knew that thousands of Chinese were coming, that they had artillery support while your artillery wouldn't reach you because of the huge mountain behind you, was it evident that you had to stay put?

Yadav: Yes, there was no going back then.

Did anyone think of saving their own lives, withdrawing? What did the Major tell you?

Yadav: The Major said if we have to withdraw, then do it. But the jawans and the JCOs said we will not leave Rezang La. We have the blessings of Lord Krishna. The Major said I am with you and I am a Yadav too, so what if my name is Bhati?

What happened next? Where were you and the Major when the fire came?

Yadav: I was at the command post with platoons on either side on the two-kilometre ridge. I was with the Major. After a while, a message came from Platoon No 8. Hari Ram (Vir Chakra) said the enemy was coming through the ridge, but we would kill them once they are in range. They repulsed that attack.

Many Chinese died. Did you see their bodies?

Yadav: Yes. They were lying scattered like berries in a market. They kept climbing up, and we were at our post. Two attacks were repulsed. Then, Platoon 7 was attacked. They didn't attack Platoon 9 even though it was at the front. Their plan was to isolate Platoon 9. But they didn't know that our commander had made arrangements so that no one could climb up.

So you had made a killing ground?

Yadav: Yes, the third and fourth attacks on Platoon 8 were also repulsed. Then they attacked with full force. That's when Surja Ram declared, Ramchander, now is the time when we will all fight out of our posts in the name of hand-to-hand combat. My communication with Platoon 7 stopped. Communication started with Platoon 8 when 14-15 yaks and around 700 Chinese took position on the ridge in between us and Platoon 8.

They came from behind?

Yadav: Yes, first we thought it was our battalion's Alpha Company that had come to help us. We thought the CO might have sent them for our help but when they started positioning their yaks and machine guns, then Havaldar Major Harphool Singh said this is the enemy. After that, the Major ordered for nine platoons to be sent from the headquarters. Since the enemy was going to attack Platoon 8, we would attack them from behind and they would be trapped between Platoon 8 and us and we would finish them.

So you saw many of your colleagues being martyred before your eyes, bayonets in hand, in hand-to-hand combat?

Yadav: Yes, I saw some like (Naik) Singh Ram (Vir Chakra) catching hold of their heads and smashing them together. What he did to the Chinese earned him their respect. Before the Chinese left, they sank a bayonet in the ground near his head, and put a helmet on top. They gave him izzat, samman, they kept a note there. We have seen that note.

Singh: If Major saab (Maj Shaitan Singh) had been around, they would have thought ye morcha kahaan chalaa gayaa...

The Chinese took out Major saab's morcha first. They were able to see everything (about the Indian position). So, Singh Ram and the others, they were fighting with bayonets?

Yadav: Yes, but sometimes the bayonets wouldn't work. The Chinese were wearing thick parkas, and the bayonets couldn't penetrate them. I saw our men, stabbing repeatedly with their bayonets, and the blade would not go through. So Singh Ram just grabbed them by their necks and smashed their heads together and against rocks.

He was a wrestler...

Yadav: Bahut tagda pehelwaan tha.He could catch people like me by the scruff of our necks and say, 'C'mon, heat the milk'. I was his boxer.

Nihal saab, you have narrated the story of how you escaped. Did anyone else manage to get away as well?

Singh: No one with me.

Yadav: Oh yes, one more, Ram Pal escaped. The next day.

Ramchanderji, tell me, what did you do?

Yadav: When we were overrun—my saab was lying motionless, and I was wounded—I remembered what (Company Havaldar Major) Harphool (Singh) had said, 'Do not let the Chinese get their hands on Major saab's body.' So I opened the sling of the rifle and tied Major saab to myself with the belt, joining our bodies together at the waist. And then, slowly, I started to roll.

The Major was still alive?

Yadav: There was very little life left in him. After about 10 yards, there was gravelly ground, and I started rolling down faster. I rolled for 400 yards, and then there was a nullah, after that boulders again. After rolling for 400 yards, I stopped near a boulder to catch my breath. I was thinking that the Company headquarters are below, so I should try to somehow get a couple of people from there to help me, so I can take saab down. But when it was 8.15 by his watch, I noticed that the Major saab was no longer alive. Because Major saab's watch ran by his pulse, and when the pulse stopped, the watch stopped as well. I took off the Major's gloves, and slid his body between boulders to hide it, so that it remained safe until someone could come to fetch it. Then I made my way down. I came down about a kilometre, to the point from where our rations were supplied. I saw that the quarter master's depot was in flames.

The few people who were there had left after setting the depot on fire...

Singh: Haan, Company to khatm ho hi gayi thi...

Yadav: Yes, the commander had called them back. I wondered what to do. And then I saw one of our jeeps, with the occupants signalling to me. I moved towards them.

You were the only one who returned alive from that battle... So, when you narrated that story, did your commanders believe you?

Yadav: Only one commander believed me. D D Shukla, who was the adjutant... He said every word of what he is saying is true. Then Dhingra saab also believed this, and the brigade commander, he too accepted the real story...

That is what Lata Mangeshkar sang, didn't she, dus dus ko ek ne maara... And even the Chinese accepted it. When you hear repeatedly that in 1962, the Indian Army lost, the Indian Army did not fight, does it hurt you?

Yadav, Singh: It happened. In Bomdila, in NEFA.

Why did it happen?

Yadav: That was the fault of our commanders. When the general himself goes away to Delhi, then who will fight the war? We gave our everything.

So what would you like to tell today's jawans and officers? What lesson should they learn from the battle of Rezang La?

Yadav: You see, my battalion got another chance after Rezang La, near Jaisalmer....

Singh: In 1971.

Yadav: Everyone has to die one day, but let us do something before we die. My son is also in 13 Kumaon. In the 1999 war, he was hit by a shell on his chest, and the doctor called me to the hospital. He said, 'We suggest that you let the splinter be, trying to take it out might create problems...' So my son is there, living with it.

Have the two of you seen the film Haqeeqat, because it has been made on the battle of Rezang La? Kar chale hum fida jaanon tan saathiyon, ab tumhare hawale watan saathiyon...

Yadav: But we have not been acknowledged in the film. I left the hall midway and walked out.

Why? Because it said Punjab?

Yadav: Yes. We fought the war, it should have been Kumaon. There are so many battalions—Kumaon, Rajput, Jat, Sikh—so why is there no battalion for us? Why don't they give us an Ahir battalion as well?

The battle that was shown (in Haqeeqat), was that okay?

Yadav: It was okay, but I left midway when I saw what was written on the shoulder.

The battle that you fought changed the course of the war of 1962. Because, if you had not fought off the Chinese, they would have captured Chushul that very day. But because you fought so bravely, the others got some time, and could withdraw, and some others were able to fortify defences. And the Chinese also suffered so much.

Yadav: Yes, they could not sustain it after Rezang La. They had to declare a ceasefire. It is here that they got the big blow, not in Bomdila, not in NEFA... This is where we held on, and fought them back.

Just to explain the significance of this battle. This wasn't just the charge of the light brigade, a brave but foolhardy charge. It actually brought about a strategic turnaround in the war of 1962, because it broke the Chinese advance, the Chinese momentum. It is our good fortune that people like these survived, just a handful of them, to tell us the story.

the two who surrived the battel(R) captain (ret)Ramchander Yadav and(left) hawaldar (ret)Nihal Singh

a sketch showing the actual positioning of solders from Charlie company

 Martyrs of rezang la !

remember rezang la ! an un imaginable sacrifice of a Indian army unit during 1962 war 

Major Shaitna singh  bhati commanding officer in battel of rezang la !

तुम्हे पाना हि अगर आगज़ का अंत होता तो शायद ये कहानी हि न होती ,

शायद चन्द लम्हो के उन मुल्कतो ने मुझे यु दीवाना करने कि शज़िस न कि होती .

उन मुस्कुरते चेह्रओ को देख कर आज भि अंखे नम होती है ,

एह्शसो मे उन रिस्तो को ज़िंदा रखने कि आश अज भि रहे हि जति है .

भूलना आसन था शायद भुल भि जता पर वो दर्द यकिन दिल राह था कि हमारे बिच कुछ तो  था ,

आगज़ न साहि अनज़म यादगार और एक साथ नसीब था.
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